I am TRYING to figure it out!

This morning it is quiet in the house. I got up & let one of our cats outside. It looks like it is going to maybe sunshine a lil bit. Every morning I get up & I hope today that I can have the strength & energy to at least get just a few of my goals accomplished. I am wondering if it is just me? What can I do? What can I do? It's been just a little over a month since our LiL Luke left us. We all are still having such painful moments. I want so badly to figure out how to take that pain away from My Kalie Rose, My Chelsie & my Husband. I want to give them hope. I want to help them think of new goals & then give them the energy & inspiration to reach them. Unfortunately, I am failing at all of the above mentioned & more. I am not saying this for sympathy. No, I just need to write it down. Last night Kalie went to bed once again with a very broken empty heart. Chelsie is still being asked at her work,"Hows the baby" People do not mean to hurt her, they just don't know he is not with us here on Earth. She hurts daily also. Kalie is sitting down at the bench & picking the tools up & supplies & she creates beautiful pieces. She just made a pair of earrings & she named them "Let the Love Grow" I love them & I love her & how she is really trying so hard to get through this lost of her sweet baby. I am proud of her & I am very proud Of my Grandson. I just want to send a HUGE Thank you to my 1000Markets Friends who I "Just never knew" or I had lost faith that the world has such beautiful souls in it. You all have GIVEN SO MUCH! We use your strength EVERY single day. Sometimes by the hour. Sending Much love to all of you.

Our Sweet Baby Angel -Lukiaya, May he watch over all of us, & show us how to be as sweet as him,We love you, Feb 7th to Feb 17, 09

Today is a very difficult day. I guess I am using this post to try & heal a lil bit. It was 1 month ago today that our Angel was given to us. We got to Love him, hold him, tell him how special he is, & he gave us back all of it and MUCH MUCH MORE! We do not know the reason???? But he was taken very swiftly & suddenly 10 days later, Feb. 17th,09. This photo is of my Daughter, lil Luke's momma, who was NEVER SO HAPPY OR AT PEACE! I am going to try hard to make this horrible painful time in our lives into a POSITIVE energy SOMEHOW! I have had MUCH support from my dear Friend Sue with the www.peaceandlovemarket.com. And my wonderful friends in "The Village Market".Alyson has been walking with me & holding me up. Sue sent me this poem. It has helped my daughter so very much in this very empty time. Thank you my dear friends with all my heart. Feel free to post anything here about something you might need some healing for. May you all have healthy, happy times ahead.
Hopi Prayer

Do not stand
at my grave and weep.
I am not there,
I do not sleep.
I am a thousand
winds that blow.
I am the diamond
glints on snow.
I am the
sunlight
on the ripened
grain.
I am the
gentle Autumn's
rain.
When you awaken
in the morning hush,
I am the swift
uplifting rush
of quiet birds in
circled flight.
I am the
soft stars that
shine
at night.
Do not stand
at my grave
and cry:
I am not there,
I did not die.

A Work In Progress

The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself.
This is a quote by, Anna Quindlen

I just had to re-post this quote. This is really something! It has been a life long journey for me. I guess I shouldn't expose myself like that. But as each day goes by I realize what is important & what is not! I have been SO Blessed!, by my new friends that I have met on 1000markets.com. I can't even begin to describe How RICH THEY have made MY LIFE! If you can, it is sure worth your while to check out their blog spots which I believe I have posted in my following blogs or favorite blogs! (I hope) I aspire to be like them but as the quote above says Be myself! In hopes that I would have the confidence to share like they share, to work hard like they all work hard and to GIVE like they all give! I know this blogspot is not much right now & it may take a very long time and I have to say it has now become a HUGE HEALING spot for me. Little did I know! Please check back & leave me some comments! I will GREATLY appreciate it & learn from it and heal & grow. MAY ALL YOUR DAYS BE FILLED with LOVE & PEACE!

I am SO FRUSTRATED! I really didn't think I could be SO SLOW IN THE HEAD! This computer stuff has got it REELING AROUND! I just want to to the simple tasks of adding a widget, adding a badge, adding a following someone elses blog??? DO YOU THINK I can do it???? NO!!!!! Anybody please drop me a line in kindergarten language I guess for me to figure it out. I have so much I would like to do like share the Peace & Love Market with you on 1000markets. And the sweet Village Market! And the Jewelry Artisans Market & much much more but all's I can figure out to do is write a post. So Please feel free to knock me on the head & let me know how it's done. I MUCH APPRECIATE IT!